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"it's so crazy..."
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Apr. 28th, 2006 @ 09:52 pm
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"AAAHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" on a cellphone...
"Oh, god..."
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"Am I hurting you? 'Cause I can go away."
"Do it again"
"NoOoOoOoOoOOOOOooo!"
"Look a rabbitt!!"
"THERE IS NO RABBITT!!!"
"BBBUUUUUOI"
[awkward pause]
"WHAT WAS THAT?!"
"Oh My gentle jesus"
"sweeeeet nectar"
"how are you guys??"
"good- you?"
"eh, ok... ... I overdrew in my account"
"what does that mean?"
"Ok, listen rich girl.."
Old Memories:
"My master calls me gravy"
No one else gets it... SUCCESS!
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Apr. 15th, 2006 @ 12:11 pm
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I woke up this morning and was annoyed by everything I saw. It was as if Chris Fisher had decided to just wake me up and show me the world from his viewpoint... Uck. I just wanna bitch slap someone because I am so annoyed...
The Day of Truth shit pisses me off..
The headlines in the news that irk me for some reason:
- Relatives believe bodies are missing Boys
- Missing Girl's Body Found in Neighbor's Home
- US-Led Trops Kill Dozens of Taliban
- Teacher Admits Faking Cancer to Collect Thousands
GUH, I know there are some positive headlines, but I am just so annoyed.. Guh.
-D!Current Mood:  uncomfortable Current Music: Sail to the Moon- Radiohead |
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I'm Too Sexy.. should NOT be playing in a run down laundry mat.. it's too awkward.
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Apr. 14th, 2006 @ 11:56 pm
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There's something liberating about being in a laundry mat.. maybe its being forced to slow down from running around everywhere to wait until your jeans are done with their last rinse cycle.. or maybe its folding your boxerbriefs in public next to the girl telling you how some of her bras are more comfortable...
So yeah, I did a bit of my laundry tonight. VERY exciting I know.. but that's ok.
I'm in a weird mood tonight.. I went from desperately having to listen to the Joseph soundtrack to having to listen to BoysIIMen..
Yepp. I did it.
Last night was so peaceful. It was great to go back to Yankton and get some pan time for my birthday.. and then return to an entirely black campus.. No, African-Americans did not run out all the whities.. instead, the transformer blew out.. USD's campus was freakishly dark. So, when I returned with Maddie we walked in the dorms abit, and then went for a walk.
I realized how fucking creepy it would be if Maddie and I were walking across campus by Old Main, she starts doing her Monkey walk into the green, and then ALL the lights go out and I hear thud of flesh and Maddie screaming..
We got creeped out by that thought... so we went and went star gazing in the middle of a soccer field. We laid blankets down, watched the dark, yet bright evening sky, and listened to Pink Floyd on her laptop. It was SOO relaxing. Maddie, if only you were a guy.. it would have been fuckin' hott
This weekend is all catch-up time.. that and I'm getting paid to sing down in Sioux City again. Yesssss, I rock.
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Apr. 8th, 2006 @ 11:27 am
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| You Belong in London | 
A little old fashioned, and a little modern.
A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.
A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.
No wonder you and London will get along so well. |
Current Music: The News- Jakc Johnson |
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Hmm, curious..
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Apr. 5th, 2006 @ 12:29 pm
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Earlier this semester, I was surprised by how one guy in my Acting class acted:
On one of the first day, we introduced ourselves and did a brief exercise that would demonstrate how our non-verbals are more important at times than actual verbal responses. In addition, it was a way for students to see that we must fell confortable in class and work in trust with eachother. The exercise was to think of ten Yes/No questions that you would NEVER ask someone. (ex. Do you hate your parents? Have you ever purposely hurt someone physically? etc. etc.) You would then switch between people and answer eachothers questions WITHOUT talking. The person answering the question does not talk or confirm/deny anything. The person asking the question is supposed to evaluate your non-verbals and make an assumed answer...
One guy in my class is a short and semi-muscular guy who you would NOT expect to be even in the fine arts building based on how he presented himself. His voice is husky and was not one to smile.
While doing this exercise, I was eventually paired with him. Some of his questions included, "Should gays be allowed in the army?" "Have you had oral sex?" and "Are you gay?"
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Awkward questions.. but ok..
In other classes since, he has really openned up while being around people and has become more talkative and doesn't shy in the corner as he once did..
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Today, we introduced our monologue selections to our class. When called upon, he said, "I'm alittle nervous about this one.. It's kinda difficult..."
The monologue was a gay solider professing his love to his closeted civilian lover, Don.
When asked about why it was difficult.. he said he thought it'd be more out there than he wanted and maybe it wouldn't be "appropriate"
I told him he made a good monologue selection.
-D!Current Mood:  mellow Current Music: That Heat- Sergio Mendes- Feat. Will.I.Am & Erica Badu |
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Keeping Myself Entertained
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Apr. 4th, 2006 @ 04:56 pm
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PART ONE: You and Your Life
1. Were any other names considered for you at birth? Honestly, I don't know..
2. What was the day, date and time for your birth? 04/12- in the evening I believe.. Yankton, SD
3. So how old will you be this year? 21.. in a couple of days actually
4. Where do you dwell? Vermillion
5. What is your astrological sign? Aries
6. Do you check your horoscopes regularly, and do you believe in them? Lately, I have been checking one particular site because it was reccomended to me by Megan Gliech.. and March's was oddly familar.. believe in them? i dunno about that
7. What are your typical [starsign] qualities?
"Traditional Aries Traits
Adventurous and energetic
Pioneering and courageous
Enthusiastic and confident
Dynamic and quick-witted
On the dark side...
Selfish and quick-tempered
Impulsive and impatient
Foolhardy and daredevil"
8. Who are you compatible with? Most people.. I have problems with people who are materialistic or purposely hurtful
9. What kind of house do you live in? I live in my dorm. Soon I will be in the Twin Cities
10. What’s the name of your street/close/road? North Plum
11. Who do you live with? My plants, buddhas and CDs
12. What rooms are in your house? *looks down hallway to other 20 rooms on this side*.. More rooms?
13. Where is your room? It's by the bathroom.. which sucks because you can hear people piss and poop.
14. How is it decorated? Everything is rearranged every month or so.. now, the computer is by the door.. plants and TV on the desk.. and futon under the loft.. A city scape with blue celophane coveres the bright lights
15. Did you decorate it yourself? Yepp
16. What kind of furniture do you have? Here? A leather office chair and ottoman, futon, loft and various shelves... at home in storage: A LOT.
17. Did you set out to decorate it with a certain look? Space, functional, and trendy.. although it's too dormish now... :(
18. Do you have posters on the walls? No. Instead I have written on various blocks in pencil..
19. What is your calendar this year: My hour-by-hour schedule... it's packed with my life.. yes, I'm sad- I know.
20. Are your parents still together? HAH! No. and thank god for that.
21. So what kind of person are you, in the good ways? :S Uhmm.. I tend to find positives.. supposedly I make things better w/o even trying..
22. And in the bad ways? I trust very few people.. perfectionist when it comes to my music...
23. In what ways do you annoy people? I suppose I take some things too seriously..
24. What are your strengths? Finding simplicity and making complexity.
25. What are your weaknesses? Didn't I kinda answer this already?
26. Are you easily depressed? Depressed? No.. distracted.. yea
27. What makes you depressed? Guh- not even going to go into that ball of wax
28. Are you easily paranoid? Uhm- my original response is no.. but I think others might think otherwise.. and they'd yell at me.. and it'd be terrible.. and I'd lose everything... HAHA!
29. What is your current mood? Uhh, not having the best day.. I'm really looking forward to the Requiem tonight to distract myself..
30. Who are your close friends? I'm too choosy.. and I don't want to ansewr that
31. Who are your favourite friends to talk with when you are upset? Grandma, oddly enough..
32. Who do you share most in common with? Randomness: Maddie.. Opinions on music: Dr. Harden... Opinions on Housing: Elizabeth- oddly.. Voice-blending: Connor.. Spirituality and outlook on life: Grandma
33. Do you have a journal/diary? This is the online and public.. other thoghts are kept elsewhere
PART TWO: Appearances
1. Insert a picture of yourself here:
This is my sexy European Trip look:
2. How important is the way you look to you? I break in and out moods of clean-cut and professional into my own, quirky style
3. How self-conscious are you when it comes to your appearance? Depends who I'm with or the situation.. There are goals not yet met.
4. How tall/short are you? 5'11"ish
5. What colour hair do you have? brown
6. Is it dyed? Nope
7. If so, what is your natural hair colour? N/A
8. How long is it? Now, it is short.. I've been in a shorter hair mood.. the longer hair just doesn't feel like me right now.. here's what I look like now:
9. Are you growing it? What a concept of being able to control your hair growing.. hmmm..
10. What would you call your body shape? D!
11. Are you happy with it? Not yet. Not mad.. maybe the better phrasing would be not satisfied..
12. What colour eyes do you have? Hazel? They're weird
13. How do you dress, and why? I like wearing what I want to wear.. I tend to be more dressed up.. I like being stylish and original.. not materialistic and freaky... Pet peeve: Being told what to wear.. Drives me nuts!
14. How long ago did you start dressing this way? High School?
15. Do your friends dress similarly to you? Some days..
16. How is the way you dress reflective of your personality? Uhhm.. I dunno.. I think that would be a better question to ask someone else if it does... or not
17. What parts of your appearance do people compliment? I was complimented by a bunch of people on the casual jacket I wore today..
18. What parts of your appearance do people insult? I dunno.. and if they do.. Fuck you.
PART THREE: Hobbies
1. What do you do for a living? I'm a full-time student.. and I'm going to be at USD for quite awhile.. but graduating with more experience than most... (not to mention, I'll have basically taken ALL the classes offered in the music dept) I also work for housing.. I love the job.. great application of teaching.. Love working with people.. I also work with 10% Society and try to help students there as well..
2. Are you happy with what you do? Generally, yes.
3. What are your hobbies: Music-sampling, LOVE going to movie theatres, composing music, collect buddhas, care for unique plants.. and yes, music theory :D
4. Name everything you love: I could be here awhile.. and I have to go soon.. so No. maybe another time?
5. Name everything you hate: Few things.. and if you really know me, I don't have to answer that.
6. What kind of people do you love: Random, big-hearted, humble, talented- or at least a knowledge of talent- humorous, and truthful- although sometimes blunt- and quirky people.. most of them like coffee..
7. What kind of people do you hate: The self-centered.. the big-headed.. those that purposely hurt.. those that purposely lie..
PART FOUR: Music
1. I know it’s a chore, but list your favourite bands and musicians here: Hah! I don't have that much time..
2. What are your favourite genres: Most.. if it shows actual talent, thought, and/or emotion, I'm content.
3. Any particular favourite songs? I don't think so. <- ditto.
4. Albums? Radiohead- OK Computer
5. Insert some of your favourite lyrics? "We live in a beautiful world"- Don't Panic- Coldplay; "Raindrops they keep fallin.. ya, but I'm free and nothing's worryin me.." Raindrops- Ben Folds Five cover
6. What band do you listen to when you want to feel happy?
OH GOOD SONG Playlist or Be Yourself Playlist
7. The most depressive music? Coldplay.. Radiohead at times.. and "too much Elliott Smith is dangerous"- Felicia
8. Do you have any favourite music videos? Heheh- I can't remember which song it is..
9. Are you in a band? Hehehe
10. If so, what’s it called? I'm On Tour
11. If you’re not in a band – do you want to be? Eh, too picky with my music.. depends who's in it
12. If the answers yes, what would you call it? ?
13. What would your part be in the band? Guh?
14. What kind of music would you play? Everything
15. Who would be in your band? ... Ok, enough.. now move on.
16. What would your music videos be like? Catchy and unique
17. What kind of songs would you write? GAHDAMNIT STOP
18. Can you write songs/music? Yes, I actually had a meeting w/ Yarabrough today going over some string quartet and orchestrations.. :D
19. What would the vocals be like/what kind of singers: Haven't written for voice yet.. even though most of my music is very lyrical..
20. What instruments would the music have? Depends on the piece
PART FIVE: Love and Relationships, etc.
1. Seeing anybody right now? Nope
2. The obvious question: Straight/bi/gay: Gay-questioning
3. Do you have crushes: Few
4. If so, do you like them for their personality, or for their appearance? One REALLY makes me laugh..
5. Celebrity crushes: Heheh- Julia Stiles
6. Ever been in love? Yes
7. Are you now? love family.. not in-love
8. How confident are you when it comes to relationships? Not sure what this question means.. as in being in relationships.. yeah, ok- not ready to settle down though.
9. Do you know of anybody who likes you? No
10. What would be most important to you in a relationship? Compatibility, general attraction, trust.. and lots of laughter
11. Your ideal guy/girl, personality: Creative, interesting, loves to get lost, caring, drinks coffee and could keep up w/ my addiction, sweet, natural beauty, genuine
12. Your ideal guy/girl, appearance: Beautiful eyes and a great smile
13. What’s more important to you, appearance or personality? Personality- everyone turns out looking like prunes anyways...
14. What are your turn ons: talent, intellegence, creativity, quirky laughter, sexual inuendo :D
20. What kind of things would you like to share in common? Dunno.. too similar is weird.. too opposite is hard to work with.. I dunno- whatever happens, happens
21. Does any particular dress sense turn you on? My inital response is jeans.. I DUNNO WHY
22. Do you remember your first boyfriend/girlfriend? I remember both quite clearly..
23. The most romantic songs you can think of? I Am Yours- Tracy Chapman
Saddest song EVER: How Could I Ever Know- Secret Garden
24. The sexiest bands? Pink
25. The sexiest singing voices? Madeleine Peyroux
PART SIX: Movies, TV, etc.
1. What are your favourite movies? American Beauty, Chasing Amy, Rent, What Dreams May Come, Normal, Garden State
2. What kind of movies do you love to watch, and why? Originality and finding yourself.. humor and romance are always nice as well.. but I LOVE a good horror flick
3. What kind of movies DON’T you watch, and why? Hmmm- not sure
4. Favourite actors: Robin Williams
5. Favourite actresses: Rosie O'Donnald, Julia Stiles
6. Most romantic movie you’ve seen and one of your favourites: not sure..
7. The most sad movie you’ve seen and one of your favourites: Brokeback Mountain
8. If you could have starred in any of your favourite movies, which one would it be, why, and what character would you have played? No- because I would change the role and it wouldn't be the same movie..
Ok enough.. Peace out.Current Mood:  weird Current Music: I Am Yours- Tracy Chapman |
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Apr. 4th, 2006 @ 03:16 pm
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Put your iTunes on Shuffle & Answer questions with the songs that come up:
1. How does the world see me?
More Money Tonight- Violent Femmes
2. Will I have a happy life?
Cabaret- Cabaret Soundtrack
3. What do my friends think of me?
Look Up (To See What's Coming)- Santana
4. Do people secretly lust after me?
What Was Was Over- The Mighty, Mighty Bosstones
5. How can I make myself happy?
Do You Right- 311
6. What should I do with my life?
High Speed- Coldplay
7. Will I ever have children?
Subterranean Homesick Alien- Radiohead
8. What is some good advice for me?
She Came In Through the Bathroom Window- The Beatles
9. How will I be remembered?
The Luckiest- Ben Folds
11. What's my current theme song?
Come to My Garden (Reprise)- Secret Garden
12. What do others think is my current theme song?
Anthrax- Kima Dawson
13. What shall they play at my funeral?
Don't Lie- Black Eyed Peas
14. What type of Women do I like?
Filthy/Gorgeous- Scissor Sisters
15. What type of Men do I like?
Cubicles- My Chemical Romance
16. How's my love life?
Nabbed- Nightmare Before Christmas Soundtrack
17. Got Milk?
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I need you now Coldplay..
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Apr. 3rd, 2006 @ 11:39 pm
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I got a phonecall last night from mom... It has been the first time i've directly talked to her in about three months?- She called to tell me that Grandpa is in intensive care.. didn't say too much more about why... and that I should call Grandma.. she finished and basically ignored that I had called earlier that day to see if they were going to come to my concert..
Moments later I called up grandma- she was changing sheets. She told me that in the last week or so Grandpa began to feel ill. Nothing major at first.. and then he stopped eatting.. and started throwing up.. and sleeping more than normal..
So, they discussed if he was feeling ok.. and he took the tough-midwestern (and family) stand on just not going to the hospital.. he would bare the weather and he'd be fine... but as it continued on, he debated back and forth.. I guess there was a moment when grandma asked him if she should call an ambulance or not.. he said no.. but said that he'd go to the hospital and Dennis would take him.. so Dennis and grandma got him out of bed and started bringing him down to the car.. and then he fell.. (sigh).. that's ok I guess.. nothing happened.. just a slip..
Grandma's really in a mix..
They took grandpa into the emergency room and moved him into intensive care when they diagnosed him with phenoma and noticed that his kidneys were not functioning due to dehydration..
It scares the family when someone stops eatting in the Sholey family. Apparently, it's a sign of death.. The most recent example was Hilma- (granny- died around 2000 in the nursing home... had stopped eatting on a regular basis for about two months.. the final few days she just stopped.. her body of 180 was withered away and buried at 97 pounds..)... so when grandpa stopped eatting a lot of triggers were going off for grandma..
Well, after some tests they hooked grandpa up to a bunch of machines.. grandma's not sure what everything is.. there's a tube inserted in his jugular.. IVs everywhere.. "and lots of monitors"...
On a good side, moments after hooking grandpa up.. he regained a lot of color and started coming back to himself... scared grandma a bit when he asked if Dennis was son... she played it off as a joke infront of the nurses..
Grandma particularly told grandpa to be nice to the nurses.. (he was REALLY grumpy with the nurses after his stroke in the 90s.. and his hip replacement a couple of years ago..)...
Grandma was ok that night.. Grandpa spent the night in the hospital.
Today, grandma spent the day in hospital. "The hospital is huge".. she walks- as I do when I'm stressed- and she ended up walking down a wing that led to another hall.. and then took the elevator back up to the floor she was originally ended up and then ended up in some random wing kinda lost and confused... she found her wayback...
"The family rooms are nice."
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Grandpa was allowed to eat icecubes today.. it has been the first time he's wanted to eat since last Sunday.. "the funny Chinese doctor" told him that he was big enough and could physically go without food "longer than he thought".. grandma thought that was interesting..
Although he was eating ice cubes, it was noticed that the intake of oxygen was reduced when he was eatting and whatnot.. (god knows HOW they figured that out).. and it is speculated that some of that ice went to the lungs... Further tests are scheduled...
They checked the kidneys.. better and functioning
Heart is going well...
Later grandma fed him ice cubes when he started to complain of being hungry.. and the doctor's yelled at her.. even though she particularlly paid attention to the monitor watching the oxygen levels...
.. I think that's the point that makes me tear up the most..
Grandma says the doctors seem positive.. She's REALLY shook up... I just wanna hug her.
She's somewhat bothered because worst-case senario.. she doesn't know about grandpa's wishes... he just chooses not to talk of death.. I think that worries her more..
GUH.
I was concerned.. but after calling up Grandma in the hallway and just hearing her voice crack and pause here and there...
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Mar. 30th, 2006 @ 12:52 pm
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I love the outdoors smell of rain before the storm.
I want to take a walk. Hopefully it will be in the rain... and I'll get soaked.
I feel so relaxed :D
-D!Current Mood:  flirty Current Music: U. Brew Magic... Snowpatrol |
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Awaiting the dawn with curious anticipation..
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Mar. 28th, 2006 @ 10:28 pm
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Wow.
| Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating | 
You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility. |
So, I hated this past weekend. Being on duty sucked som major balls... On Thursday, I did an alcohol doc but didn't want to be up all night.. Friday I was on call.. but it just sucked just chilling in my room..
On Sat. I went to the Methodist Church GLBT Conference here in Vermillion.. and it was actually a really good conference. It was decently put together, the topics were interesting despite it supposed to be about religion and spirituality, and I met some really cool people. I actually met this lesbian from here in town- She's 72? and came out when she was in her late sixties.. She was grey, wrinkled and under five foot...
The part where some of the 10% Society members to speak went over better than I thought it would. I'm not going to lie: To be asked about my religion and spirituality while in a church unnerved me at first.. but after we changed it to more of Q&A from the audience, I felt much better.. partically, because I would have had no idea what to talk about for the entire time..
After an interesting speech from a pastor that came out after working for the church for 30-some years, I kept getting weird side comments from Matt. The pastor would make comments about wanting someone to be there, someone to cuddle with.. and Matt kept going.. "well there 'ya go..".. and "Maybe he's gotta daddy-son complex... Eh?"... Seriously, do I come off as that?! I don't want to settle down.. I don't want to be married right this moment.. I don't want to have someone in my bed everynight. I'm not ready for that.. I do know that I want a relationship that is more than some middle-school dates or a hook-up.. I look for a connection.. not just because some guy is cute.. Does that automatically mean I want to settle?? No. God!
Guh. I have a HD Interview to watch over.. Peace out.
-D!
Mar. 27th, 2006 @ 12:40 pm
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| The Keys to Your Heart | 
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Mar. 21st, 2006 @ 08:04 pm
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"Without even trying, you make something better than it was before." - Eric Bliss
Mar. 18th, 2006 @ 11:56 pm
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I bought the dvd of What Dreams May Come... This is one of my favorite movies ever.
MMmmmm..
I should look up this composer..
WHOA! The alternative ending is odd.. I think part of it I'm too used the original ending.. While the original message is still sustained, it's like adding the soundtrack to the Lion King and a pregnancy together..
Going back to quite a few things:
This past Chamber Singers was probably one of the few trips that I felt as a true musician.. I actally got to see true musicians naturally emerge..
I went to Minneapolis and for the first time just took my time and did what I felt like doing...
I took my time getting up there, which was it was itneresting to get there in six or so hours, yet stop for at least an hour stopping in various towns.
The first night I ended up taking grandma to Barnes and Noble.. ran into Steve and Kari.. bought a Elliot Smith cd.. two books.. and then went out on the town.
The next day I went to down Central, to Dinky Town, the U of M, and then Rosedale... after I dropped of my grandparents and stayed for awhile, I went to a lesbian-owned coffee shop and listened to a live band called
LA and the Timekeepers.. and then I got lost downtown for awhile..
Memo to self: when three lanes of traffic are facing yo uand there are no other cars around you.. you're in the biking lane.. hahah, oh good times.
The next day, grandma and I walked Grand Avenue and we went out. Later that night, I ended up watching a old live recording of a Bruce Springsteen concert and my uncle said he once had an album on the sceen.. I realized that that was the exact album i had bought earlier that day for forty-nine cents. Good times.
I decided to head out the next morning, and so, I did. I had my interesting experience trying to find Starbucks in Owatana.. and then I found the Starbucks fourty-five minutes later as I got onto the interstate again and saw the intended Starbucks on the next exit for Bridge Street.
Go figure.
Unfortunately, I was right in the middle of the storm that came through that day. I was on the interstate before ANY of the plows were out. While I consider myself to be a decent driver, I have never had such an experience as I did on the way back.. The roads were so bad, that if you chose to pass people, the slush on the road could cause you to swurve into the ditch..
gtg
I'll finish this when i get back from chatting w/ Harden
-D!
Mar. 18th, 2006 @ 05:09 pm
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Well, I had a really shitty/stressful week.. not gonna lie...
On a side note, I had a dream that I was director of a show choir.. *blinks*... and it had something to do with a 20s flapper dance..
I'm going out this weekend and going to have a blast. Anyone interested in coming with?
-D!
Mar. 16th, 2006 @ 10:40 pm
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SO I'll fill in my journal later about the fantastic last few days in the cities.. but I'm on my way back currently.
As I drove out of the cities, I saw an advertisement for "CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP CIGARS!" in the middle of nowhere.. and I thought to myself, "YOu'd have to be pretty pathetic to purposely go out of your way for your addiction."
RIght outisde of Owatana I saw a board for Starbucks and decided to stop.
THe directions on the board said "Take Bridge Exit 42- Turn Right".. so when I came up to mile marker 43 (going south mind you) I noticed that there was an exit 42A & B.. I took A because that was ontop of a bridge.. makes sense right?? So, I continued to take that sharp exit and turn right but didn't see a Starbucks on the right.. SO, after driving for a bit, I turned around and went the other way for awhile. THat's when I got myself lost- not actually, but I like to say that phrase- and I ended up in their downtown area on the completely opposite side of where I came in.. After awhile, I began to think I would turn around and just go back and maybe I just missed it. So, I did so. Not so much.
I got right back to where I started and decided to pull into McDonalds and just ask.. yes, I could have gotten coffee there but it just didn't feel right. (Their McDonalds is themed with Classic Rock and it was quite entertaining) and she told me to go back to the stop light right outisde and take a left, it would be on the right side...
NOt so much.
So, I turned back around and began to just give up on my addiction.. but then I noticed a Dunn Bro. Coffee place.. so, I decided to just go with it and try this place out. I've never been to a Dunn Bro.- and if I have, it must have not been good enough for me to remember it- and so I came in.. I asked about how to actually get to Starbucks- confiding in them I would still do my business here- and the McDonalds lady was WAY OFF.. IN the end, I ordered here.. and I added my request of my carmel mocha to be at 140...
to which she responded "We always make our drinks at 140."....
Oh success.
I'll be home soon enough.
-D!
Mar. 12th, 2006 @ 11:01 am
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Yet again another entry posted from here in the cities.. :
SO, I'm currently sitting on my family's laptop on the wireless network of a lesbian's coffeeshop in the New Brightinton area listening to a live band. The woman performing is actually pretty good and as are the rest of the band.. Dispite what she said amoment ago, their music is more rock than folk..
nevermind, this song is much more folkish...
Yepp, definately love the cities so far.
Today I got my 4-in-1 player.. I also bought a Rolling Stones album.. I'm hyped to get it set up at home..
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D
I can't help but smile.. it's soo cool here... the place was kinda busy when i walked in and ordered... but now its getting packed.. :D :D Yay! GAY PEOPLE.. or at least culture- makes me happy.
So anyways- Today I went to this gay store and bookstore in downtown MInneapolis and then over to U of M's glbt resource center/multicultural center... and then I bummed around for the remainder of the time.. :D :D
Smiles galore!
OK- enough, I have to get to some of my other work that I brought with.. I kinda felt bad telling grandma I needed to go and do some homework alone for a moment, but.. I do..
... that and she showed me how to do French pleats afew hours ago.
.. god, I'm gay.
Peace out.
-D!
Mar. 10th, 2006 @ 08:28 pm
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So I'm on my uncle's Apple laptop.. and I'm not going to lie.. I kinda like it.
I was always abit cautious of it, but I decided, "Eh, Why not? He's got wireless setup here.. and I need to get my fix of e-mail time."
Oh, by the way, I'm in Minneapolis testing out the waters before I move up here. I'm not going to lie, I'm REALLY looking forward to this summer. I'm sick of not having culture around.. I can't wait until I'm able to finish up my degrees and just move out to London...
(Sigh)
I found out tonight that my mom has dropped the marriage because "he has too many issues going on in his life."
No shit Sherlock.
Our Chamber Singers tour was fuckin' awesome if I do say so myself. Everything thing went so well.. I had an awkward home-stay.. but I guess it wasn't that bad..
I think it was really shitty of Brian to do what he's done.. but.. whatever.
So, I came up here and really just took my time.. I stopped in Albert Lea to let my car simmer for abit.. just in case it wanted to act up (it didn't).. and I stopped at a rest area and stopped for gas near Apple Valley.. and I still made it in 6 hours...
.. I didn't think I was speeding.. apparently I was mistaken.
Oh, and I'm not going to lie: It was kinda weird randomly running into Steve and Kari... Did NOT expect that one at all! ... especially since it was at my Barnes and Noble...
I was just kinda baffled.. so, since I was speechless, I ran away and bought an Elliott Smith cd.
.. and then bought two more books which looked appealing..
Tomorrow I plan on retreating to a new part of the city that I really haven't explored.. Just as I have been doing with Sioux City, I am going to purposely get lost and explore more of this city.. more in particular the U of M campus and Minneapolis
So in short: Grandma and I are going to have an adventure..
Well, I suppose I could just finish up for the night..
Peace out.
-D!
Mar. 9th, 2006 @ 10:53 pm
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Unlike unicorns, the easter bunny, or a logical Bush decision, 5 AM does exist! I was surprised too!
So, you know how some cell phones have a ring that is basically a chord, and then a roll of a chord upwards for a ringtone? I keep hearing this at the front desk.
I have not determined if it compairable to unicorns yet..
During my Wednesday desk shift- rather than do the inventory- I got into conversation with Ben on the requirements for an eye exam.. as in, how do they determine what really is "normal vision" and then how to establish which font sizes would really correspond... (can you tell i was discussing this with a computer science major?).. I still say that some eye doctors purposely change the font size just to tell you you have bad vision.. bastards!..
So to check out a font size estimation what did we do? We printed off a version of the eye exam- Thank you google!- and we put it to the test. Apparently, the font on each line has a correlating number off to the side- this number indicates how many feet you should be away from the sign and be able to read that line..
The distance from the wall next to Beede to the computer is roughly 15 feet.. (yes, we measured it out, I had a desk shift to avoid.. hello?!) I missed one.
The first line- with the large F on this chart- is line for 70 feet. To test if we could actually see that from 70 feet away, I got out the desk's tape measure.. unfortunately, after 12 ft I broke it and had to abandon the project to quickly fix the tape measure.
So, this morning during this desk shift that until recently only existed in my imagination this year, I figured out that the F is visible at the appropriate distance.
That and the distance from the front doors to a couple feet into the mail room is roughly 70 feet.
Thank you boredom!
Peace out.
-D!
Mar. 3rd, 2006 @ 05:28 am
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Maybe it is the inner-ed. major in me.. but I love this movie..
Mona Lisa Smile.. slightly a chick-flick.. but still a good movie of a true educator.
I've watched this movie so many times while working at the desk.. that these beginning scenes just aren't as effective.
I went to the play tonight in Knutson.. Wow. While I think that the play that was "supposed to be the shortest" one of the season and turned out to be 3 hours long was just ok.. the hour or so of just non-verbals that were added into the show REALLY made it drag at times.
.. So goddamnit... 15 minutes into this shift and what i wanted is NOW happening.. Grrrr...
Oh well, I should just give up.
So, whenever I actually figure it out and get to Minneapolis, grandma is going to show me how to fix somethings myself..
.. which reminds me: Jonnie's suit didn't fit well in the play tonight.. granted, it was partically because of the cut and look which gave the gut-look.. but still.. it was large in the chest and alittle long in the legs..
"Let's take our coffee elsewhere.."
Peace out.
-D!
Feb. 26th, 2006 @ 02:03 am
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I kind of feel like I've abandoned this journal for awhile... so here's like a shit-ton of updates in the world of me that I feel I need to tell myself/vent to the world:
- Mom and I aren't on talking terms. Then again, she's not on talking terms with grandma either.. we're not sure how to really approach it anymore... i guess they're getting married next month..
- I've officially decided to live in Minneapolis this summer. I'm arranging to work- hopefully- at a formal-wear store.. or do volunteer work at some gay-related place so I can actually have gay culture around me...
- I'm really REALLY REALLY looking forward to the coffee-break mornings with grandma while gazing out into her backyard.. :D :D :D
- I met Sherri. Apparently, Sherri is the mom to a gay guy that I went to high school but didn't really know.. (he's 4years older than I am).. and we met at the conference- both of us were volunteers- and we just started talking.. both of us kinda just need a different outlet at times so we said we'd get together and chat sometime.. so we did that today.. we chatted for two hours at the U.Brew about everything from modern gay culture to relationships (for both of us).. I REALLY like her- she is so down-to-earth!
- The conference went over well despite how much drama really was behind it..
- I still kinda wonder, but I doubt it anymore- It doesn't seem like him.
- Coffee meetings are great! I'm not going to lie.
- I'm getting REALLY excited for the Verdi Requiem!!!!!! It's flippin' awesome.
- I have been getting random e-mails from people that I apparently talked to during the conference... and I feel special.. 10% has been invited to two other GLBT conferences in the nation.. I'll be bringing that up later..
- Minneapolis has so much potential that I have really only began to tap into.
- I bought RENT today.. :D :D :D
- It still makes me tear up for so many reasons.
- I have learned some great program ideas lately..
- My tattoo program is at a stand-still as Kat and I are looking for a new artist because the Yankton artist sucks balls.
Guh.. I can't think anymore..
Feb. 22nd, 2006 @ 12:48 am
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"... I don't agree with some decisions you've made in your life."
Feb. 11th, 2006 @ 04:16 pm
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Guh.
My brain hurts.. a lot has happened over the last few days..
I grew up in a house where alcohol was not around. My family hated it... and heres some more reasons why:
Afew days ago, my mom's live-in boyfriend woke up to find that there was no milk and hardly any cereal... He then got mad and argued with my mother that there should have been some... (apparently, it's too much for my siblings to have some before school in the morning)...he then got even more pissy and decided to take something from downstairs (i think it was some DVDs) and went to pawn them/it.. and then continued to go to the bars... (mid-day, might i add)- he then stayed there well into the night.. continued to come home and argue about the ceral once again.. to the point that he began to break furniture, scratch up the new table set, and break other stuff in the house.. and then continued to push my mom around.
Two and half hours later, he was kicked out of the house and arrested with five different accounts.. (some of which i don't remember.. the ones i do include: resisting arrest, property damage, and assult...)
Did I mention that I found out they were planning on getting married in March and didn't tell half of the family!??
Last night, I got a message on my answering machine from grandma that said mom took him back.
..My mom is out of touch with reality.
Don't get me wrong, I don't mind drinking- jeezus, there's much worse things- but alcohol really shows people's true side... or should i say that having to have alcohol on a regular basis makes me wonder what they are really after.
and on that note.. i kinda miss my old friends.
I am going to Yankton to "have coffee" with mom.. I'm going to be very blunt.. and based on her previous decisions, I have a feeling my mom and I might not be on good talking terms when I'm done ranting...
.. and Brokeback Mountain made me tear up tonight..
(sigh) I have a headache.
-D!
Feb. 11th, 2006 @ 03:16 am
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http://www.jonathonforgovernor.us/Home_page.html
Vampire politics (Willie Geist, Situation Senior Producer)
Jonathon Sharkey isn't the first politician to be accused of being an evil bloodsucker. He might, however, be the first to accuse himself of that. Better known to his base as "The Impaler", Sharkey is a self-proclaimed vampire, Satanist, and semi-professional wrestler. If he gets his way (and vampires typically do), he'll also be the next governor of Minnesota.
In a shrewd political maneuver clearly intended to raise his national profile for an inevitable third-party presidential run, Sharkey discussed his campaign platform with Tucker on "The Situation" this week. He proved himself to be not some wacko with fangs and a cape (well, he does have cape), but rather a common-sense vampire with real solutions for the real problems facing Minnesotans. Sure, some shortsighted voters will have trouble overlooking the fact that Sharkey feeds on human blood, but let's be real here, is that really the most disgusting thing a candidate for public office has ever done? Bill Clinton (allegedly) hooked up with Paula Jones, for God's sake. Now that's offensive. FREE VIDEO
• Voting for the Vampire?
The Situation's Tucker Carlson speaks to a real-life vampire running for Governor of Minnesota.
MSNBC
If you're a junkie for Minnesota politics like I am, you know the 2006 gubernatorial election will be decided by voters' answer to one central question: do you or do you not favor the public impalement of drug dealers, terrorists and other violent criminals? If you answered "yes" to what really amounts to a rhetorical question (what right-thinking person could oppose it?), then there is finally a candidate who speaks for you. Sharkey has pledged to bring a little taste of 15th Century Transylvania right there to The Land of 10,000 Lakes. Convicted criminals will be impaled in front of the statehouse. That's right, stakes will be driven through them. How's that for a law-and-order candidate?
When your governor has a name like "The Impaler", you can be pretty sure impalement is more than just another empty campaign promise. If, however, Sharkey runs into any unforeseen legal obstacles with the whole impaling business, he pledged on our show to send Sicilian crime families after the drug dealers. He might have some trouble locating Sicilian crime families in the greater Twin Cities area, but let's cross that bridge when we get to it.
As you laugh to yourself about the idea of a Satanist vampire sitting in the Minnesota governor's mansion, remember one thing: a professional wrestler nicknamed "The Body" kept that seat warm not too long ago. Jonathon "The Impaler" Sharkey has my formal endorsement. I'm getting on the bandwagon while there's still room. See you on "The Situation"!
http://msnbc.msn.com/id/10693414/
But he was arrested earlier.. according to the Argus Leader it was because he broke out of prison.. AND a warrant because of stalking...
Wow.
-D!
Feb. 2nd, 2006 @ 12:38 am
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... Did you hear about Sen. Liberman's statements about the Katrina probe??
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/4645448.stm
http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/01/24/katrina.levees/index.html
... Is a "super-secret spy agency in subruban Maryland" REALLY that "super-secret" if the press knows about it to cover it??
http://www.cnn.com/2006/POLITICS/01/25/bush.nsa.ap/index.html
.. Stupid debts:
http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/1564837/posts
.. Does anyone else see a problem when OTHER countries hate our president??
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/4644922.stm
Guh.
-D!
Jan. 25th, 2006 @ 01:34 pm
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.. and I'm feelin' good.
*almost raunchy big band trumpets go*
I did my booking last night for Vegas for my birthday.. VERY excited. I should have done it like last semester when I had done the planning for it.. but I didn't have the money. 'Glad I can do it myself W/O the help.
It's a new dawn! It's a new day! It's a new life!... and I'm feeeeeeeeelin' good.
Peace out.
-D!
Jan. 19th, 2006 @ 10:05 pm
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I'm listening to techno and chilling.
Too bad I can't figure out a better way for my life to just get less awkward at times.
Oh well, my life is going to be UBER different in a matter of a few months, and then in a matter of a few more months it might be different all together..
Memo to self: Job applications.
I feel alittle awkward on what to say to Brandi. I wish everything would just work out... I wish I could take my stance right now and give it to her.. I wish she wouldn't hurt and that she could just get away from it all.
Recent events:
I got my bill awhile back that said I was getting a check back from the university.. $1400 is nice... only they forgot to add in the credit for CA's meal plan, whie they still charged me. As a result, when they did credit it back, nearly 1000 was put back into my favor.. a check for 2400-some dollars is fuckin awesome!
I became a member of the music museum and gave a $150 donation.
I gave a $100 donation to STC.
I am donating $250 to the music department...
$50-$100 will be going to 10% this week as I am alittle pissy towards some people within that REALLY hosed me on some stuff.
I guess I don't really need anything in my life currently.. so I might as well give.
-D!
Jan. 18th, 2006 @ 11:00 pm
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I’ve had such a rollercoaster of emotions right now. A moment ago, I was talking to Brandi about the possibility of getting together for New Years… and then I ended up in a conversation with mom which ended with her crying and reminding me how much shit my family is in.
I have a headache.
Earlier today- while mom drove me to Vermillion b/c my car has kinda died on me- I debated leaving everything. I thought about just packing up the bare essentials, giving everything else to Goodwill and charities, and moving up to Minneapolis.
(sigh)
My family really just gets to me at times. I forgot how much Pan means to me.. that being able to leave and get away from home was essential to my sanity. Now, I’m not sure what to think as my siblings are going older.
Travis has enlisted in the navy. Yepp, he leaves in August. Yet, I think this will be a good thing for him.
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Too many things at once. Head.. hurts.. Ahhhck.
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I’ve walked away from this entry three times out of random situations.. in short: I’ve never been sure where the fate of my family will go. I hate that.
.. especially when my father is such a douche at times.
I miss school. Life is not NEARLY as complicated there.
-D!
Dec. 30th, 2005 @ 11:54 am
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I’ve had a very interesting day. I get a lot of time to sit and think.. which is dangerous I know!- Before I left USD for break, I had a night where I discussed with how odd I thought it was that “some people only do one thing.. and that’s it… they don’t understand running around trying to do more with their time…”
Well, in all honesty, this free time is allowing me to be a better person.
How? Here’s a list of some good deeds I did today: helped Brenda take out a load of goods to her car, organize a party to visit Karen on Friday since she can’t come to work, help a shit ton of men pick out gifts for their wives AND wrap them nicely, set up a display that has built a new business tie for Lakeport, carried large packages to people’s cars, and helped my sister write her paper.
I also spent twenty minutes trying to decide if I had uber amounts of money to donate to charities, which charities would I give to… and then I got distracted by a
This is why Lakeport makes me smile.
And on a wonderful note: I am finally out at work. Yes, it has been two years.. but working for a very nice conservative family made me leery for awhile.. I didn’t lie about myself.. I just merely.. left out that part. When I left for school this summer I told Mardena over dinner at the Quarry and I figured it would eventually get through to others. And today, when I walked in and Phyllis complimented my coat and clothing, she said “Any girl would want you… or guy.”
*smiles*
Tracy Chapman really makes some great music…
I have gotten more done on my symphony I started awhile… it’s currently almost 3 minutes in length and is about to modulate.. it’s not much, but it takes awhile to write out all the parts and to allocate what instrument to a part/pitch.
I’m hyped!!
I’ve discovered that I REALLY enjoy candles lighting my room. I can’t stand my room being overly lit at night.. the contrast between the dark and light hurts my eyes, so that is why room tends to be dimmer at night.
Ok, enough said. Peace out.
-D!
Dec. 23rd, 2005 @ 02:52 pm
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I woke up this morning rested. The only downfall: a headache that tends to come with sinus infections.. ick.
I went to YHS’s Holiday Concert last night.. Now, I KNOW I’ve meet Mr. Friddley somewhere before. He had no idea who I was.. nor did he recognize Trevor’s name when I told him our relationship. He nodded. Small talk pisses me off at times… and his sucked.
Chorally.. they are lacking a lot of men. In all seriousness, I think there were like 15 men.. TOTAL… in ALL the choirs… wha!? What happened??? The choral department used to be fuckin awesome.
I watched the movie Crash last night. GREAT movie. I heart movies that have so many stories going on and then they are all related in the end… I think Crash has had the most elaborate version that I’ve seen in awhile..
Ok, I better get ready for work… Another day of standing around, taking up some orders, wrapping presents, having cups of coffee, and occasionally doing manual work is ahead of me.
I *heart* my job. Ok. Peace out.
-D!
Dec. 20th, 2005 @ 12:48 pm
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